28 March 2017

Why I Quit Youtube

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This is a very sad post for me to write and one I didn't think I would be making anytime soon. I started making youtube videos a year ago and I remember being really excited about it. The first video I made was a vlog about Move It, a dance convention in London. It was really fun and whilst it didn't get that many views I was shocked it got nearly 100! I went on from there, vlogging about makeup, my pets, fashion and just my life in general. In the summer I even started weekly vlogging and in December I attempted vlogmas.

My channel grew well and I have over 450 subscribers now, with many of my friends looking forward to new videos or even wanting to be in them. It was a lot of fun, especially during the summer, but it had to end sometime.

The main reason I quit youtube is because I don't have enough time. I really felt it at Christmas when I was trying to film and upload every day whilst keeping up with my studies and an under staffed retail job at it's busiest time of year. I knew my videos weren't that good but I put pressure on myself to keep going, to the point where I stopped enjoying it and eventually gave up Vlogmas with a week left to go.

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Blouse: Forever 21
Dungaree Dress: Thrifted

I stopped vlogging up until recently when I decided I was going to try again. I started coming up with ideas and posted a couple of videos but my lack of time became an issue again. I realised my heart still wasn't into it and I was spending time filming/editing that I could have been spending on my blog or screenwriting. I realised I was exhausting my creativity by trying to stretch it too far across too many platforms. If I use the time and effort I was half heartedly spending on youtube and put it all into what I actually want to do, I know it will be for the better.

I also realised I didn't have anything big to say. I thought to myself, "why would anyone want to watch my videos rather than some of the bigger youtubers out there?" and I honestly couldn't think of a reason. All the people I like to watch have their own thing and I just couldn't decide on what my thing should be.

So I have decided to stop posting youtube videos indefinitely. As much as I enjoyed it at the start, it's just not the same anymore. Maybe when I finish film school or have a less demanding job I will think about starting it up again, but for now I'm happy to focus on my writing.

Thanks for reading, sorry to be a bit of a Debbie downer on your week! I promise the next post will be a lot more up beat!

See you soon,

Beth x


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